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I PERSONALLY think that no job or amount of money is worth so much stress and fear and dread. Certainly not worth your health, and all of those things can make you physically ill.
I am with dear tec on this, dear Loz (peace to you, both!). We CAN "stab ourselves all over with many pains," can we not, when pursuing things of this world? Even if we have a family to support... surely we know that JAH and Christ won't let us go hungry or naked... right? But if what we're pursuing in this world causes us so much stress... or even takes up so much of our time... that we can no longer hear when Christ speaks... or seek his will/the kingdom... BECAUSE of that stress and/or the related time, well...
What profit a man if gains the whole world... but loses his soul/spirit?
I cannot imagine that JAH or Christ would consider you a failure if you said, "No, I can't do THIS particular job/thing." Rather, I think your HONESTY... as to your limitations... would be of more value to them. As for what other humans think, the ONLY human you need to worry about is yourself... and perhaps dear hubby (and I say perhaps, because sometimes it might not matter what he thinks, either - LOLOL!). Since dear hubby is giving you a pass, perhaps that's your cue to consider something else... something that might even turn out to be BETTER... but you would have never known about it due to taking on this particular post.
My advice (although you certainly don't need to take it)? Throw the whole thing on Christ, tell HIM what you're going through, ask HIM to tell you what to do, how, and when... and then let go. Then trust... have FAITH... in him... that HE will tell you what is best and where it's best for you to be. Again, you don't have to take my advice, not at ALL. But you might find it an easier road to travel and load to bear to do it that way.
MUCH strength and peace to you, luv... and may JAH bless!
YSSFS of Christ,
Shellamar