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SAB SAID
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Hello Shelby, Tec and anyone else who set up this forum. I for one think that it's a great idea. I'd like to introduce myself. My name is Sabastious (SAB-AS-CHEE-US). I left the JW cult about 3 years ago. I am a born in that really never had faith in the organization to begin with. I secretly "made the truth my own" in ways that JW leadership would not approve of. I remember one time when I was a teenager I told an uncle that I didn't see myself continuing on as a Witness for my entire life. I remember him scolding me for acting arrogantly. At the time it was just a feeling, but little did I know that that feeling was a seed that would eventually lead me to the truth about the truth, but only until my adult years.
I married "in the truth" and my wife woke up soon after I did and we were challenged by the choices that lied before us. We could either be honest about our feelings about the organization with our family and friends risking total ostracism, or we could lay low and try to fade. Interestingly I had a strong urge to just blurt it out to everyone whereas my wife took the more subtle approach. I posted on Facebook that I didn't want to be a JW anymore and that was enough to receive total shunning from most of my JW family and friends. I was left with a wife who the family looked at as a "sad" story because of being married to an "apostate." Little did they know that her doubts were as strong as mine, she was just less bold. Her fears about being "too open" with our doubts were confirmed as my stellar reputation was brought out back and shot. I had elders meet with me and I simply told them they could not help me.
It's been a gut wrenching journey that I would only wish on my most bitterest of enemies. Only many books could explain it all. Having an entire support system ripped from your naive hands can leave lasting emotional scars and a life in pieces. My wife found out that she was pregnant 2 and a half years ago with our now son. Even though my JW family do not care to ever meet him we are very happy parents and look forward to raising our little one with pagan celebrations and extracurricular activity aplenty.
I think there is a change in the winds with all of these deconverts of organized religion flocking to the internet these days. It's an instant community of refugees that are pouring out of the Great City of Babylon the Great.
Anyway, I look forward to having conversations with everybody who joins this forum. It was started by some very special people.
Regards,
-Sab
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