So...I was anointed during a time when I'd left the WTBS. I saw their corruption, their lack of truth, was disillusioned. Out of the blue, seemingly, I was visited by Christ and anointed. It blew me away. More than I have words to describe. He led me to scriptures and on reflection, SPOKE to me.
I went back to the WTBS assuming (WRONGLY) that I should be there. It was my perception of where He wanted me to be. I stayed there for a further 15 years, unhappy mostly, battling with what I was 'hearing' and what happened in the KH. I felt the Holy Spirit draining away. Agony. I couldn't understand why.
Long story short I was disfellowshipped, wrongly. To my amazement I felt Jah and His son still with me and moreso! Jah had dragged me out of a daughter of Babylon the Great! I could never have left so He had to.
Many times I've asked our Lord why He didn't guide me to stay out of Babylon the Great of which the JWs are a part. I left it with Him to answer that question. A few days ago He reminded me of a vision He gave me immediately after my anointing. I'd forgotten it.
I had a vision that showed me the whole world in darkness. It was shocking. There were just a few lights here and there shining out. I PRESUMED wrongly, that those lights belonged to anointed JWs. Now I see that I was wrong to assume anything. I should've ASKED!
He was telling me that there was no light in the world. He is the light, the truth, the way and the life. No one else. So...I wasted many more years trying to fit into the WTBS knowing really that I couldn't.
Until He showed me recently, I had forgotten that I'd ever had this or any vision, ever! Now, I'm humbled and so cross with myself that I wasn't listening and watching and discerning.
Let Jaheshua, the Holy one, be blessed and thanked for His mercy and love and His blood that can provide forgiveness for our many sins.
Peace,
Your servant and sister in Christ
Loz x
_________________ "This is my son. LISTEN to Him!"
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